Thursday, January 16, 2014

Size of a Grape

Greetings from 9 weeks. Never thought I'd arrive, but the weather is fine!

Seriously, people. How is it that other people's pregnancies are over in a flash? Friends and celebrities seem to have mastered some sort of supersonic gestation technique. But your own pregnancy, when you've worked for it and just really need the first trimester to take about five minutes -- it crawls by at a snail's pace.

Still. Obviously I am grateful to be at this point. I don't want to say it out loud but I have not been here often.

The spotting continues -- all brown, which makes health care providers absolutely yawn in your face, because they are not the one who has to take a deep breath while pulling down their pants. I think it would really help me if someone would come over here with an ultrasound machine, like every single day. Why is this not offered? Luckily, I am still seeing the RE to monitor hormones as I'm weaned off the medications, and have also gotten in with an OB and a perinatologist, who will do my scans. So if a slightly illogical but urgent question pops up, say, what will happen if my son's friend pushes me in the stomach or will I bake the baby with my heated car seats, I can spread the crazy evenly over three medical professionals' offices.

Meanwhile: pedestrian complaints I am not supposed to complain about because I'm an infertile. Like oh, Lord, the nausea. Hungry every. Single. Minute. And yet everything, to me, is exactly like Oliver Twist's porridge: an unappealing, colorless pile of slop. Please, sir, I do not want any more. And yet I must eat or I will throw up, and everyone who knows me understands that throwing up signals the coming end of the world. So I eat exactly five things: pizza, bagels and cream cheese, apples and cheddar cheese, and yogurt with granola. Do not ask me why these things are okay and chicken makes me gag -- all I know is that keeping up with the hunger when you don't want to eat anything is making me so tired.

Finally, a slight obsession with progesterone. My clinic has already weaned me from the estradiol this week, which felt a little early -- but their medical degrees really gave them a leg up in that debate. They typically wean off the progesterone at 10 weeks, and looking back, that's exactly when I stopped it for H. On this they're a little more willing to work with my neurosis. They say no problem if I want to go longer, to 11 or even 12 weeks. Advice welcome.

5 comments:

Julia Spencer said...

No advice here - just wanted to send you well wishes!

Caroline said...

No advice either but hooray for 9 weeks!

Chicken during pregnancy?! Gag, gag, gag. I could have eaten (and came close to it) cereal every day for the first trimester +.

keep on little grape!

Turia said...

9 weeks! I hadn't realized you were that much further ahead. Hurrah for you and the wee grape!

I think my clinic keeps us on progesterone to the twelve week mark. Honestly, though, I think I would stop earlier if they offered it to me given how much the PIO shots suck. But peace of mind is also a very good thing and possibly worth more than a less sore ass.
xoxo
T.

birdsandsquirrels said...

9 Weeks! That is awesome! Thanks for your comment. I have been following your blog still and tried to comment a few times from my stupid phone, but I can't ever get that to work, and I'm rarely ever on my old laptop. I am so happy for you, and I have been sending good thoughts out to the universe for you, despite my inability to post or comment. Things are good here. I'm working on a post now. I hope the brown spotting stops and that you have 31 easy/healthy/stress free weeks until this baby is born!

Roccie said...

They DO totally yawn in your face. Aceholes.

Here I am. What magnificent news. What a long ride. Dammit I wish I had been here.

Joyous for you!

 
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