Monday, January 6, 2014

Sweet Relief

It was a long time, the seconds between the probe going in and the words coming out of her mouth. And you can trust that this is true, because my husband, who had the objectivity of not having a probe swimming around in his own nether region, later told me he thought it seemed like a while too.

And I don't know for sure what she said, even though I'd imagined it in moments of optimism, I don't know what she actually said, because I don't think I was actually in my own body, able to hear things. I was floating somewhere, waiting for someone to say something that made me think it was okay to be in that room.

Whatever she said, it registered that there was a beating heart on the screen, that pulse of light I'd prayed to see. And this time, when everyone in the room sighed their sigh of relief and said things like Congratulations and I'm so happy for you, it felt like they were talking to me and that it was really, truly true.

The heart rate measured at 164. I saw it with my own eyes and heard it with my own ears.


Caroline said...

Wonderful. Wonderful news. Keep on keeping on, little one.

Mel said...

Amazing. Congratulations.

Turia said...

Wonderful news! I am SO happy for you. Fingers crossed everything continues to go well.

anofferingoflove said...

happy tears for you! yay! :)

Brianna said...

Absolutely wonderful :)

Roccie said...

The milestone to beat! Congratulations. Great news.

Anonymous said...

Phew. So happy for you!

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